Personal Experiences As Of Late
I’ve been digging around, reading. Also, since the First Rite to Leviathan, I’ve been working with Ba’alberith for certain reasons. I cannot share the true reasons with the public, but it has been an interesting ride, nonetheless. It has been necromantic in origin. I set up my boveda as a Ba’alberith altar for the time being. My ancestors did not object. I’m not too sure if they like some of the black items on it, but it’s that time of year and I’ve heard no complaints so far. LOL. My mom would be yelling at me from beyond the grave. Anything she would want on there would have to be pink. And my grandma, it would have to be red.
Anyway… to the serious shit. I’ve done a transformation rite, a secret one. It’s pretty slow in process though. I don’t expect to change that fast, but there are manifestations of change happening right now that are extremely positive in nature, and I believe that has to do with Ba’alberith and my ritual with the Death Demons. I’ve been doing a lot of divination, which is a strong point for me. Especially the Demonic sigil cards, which aren’t hard to master, but can really be accurate – they also bring out the medium and clairvoyant in me. I’ve also been using the Lenormand Oracle, which I find fascinating, but difficult to learn because I need a decent book to study the meanings of the cards. It’s not hard, but I still have a bad memory. Being oxygen deprived with a very high fever will do that to you. But, this oracle deck is fascinating on how it is very readable and much more approachable than tarot to me. I am getting into tarot too, again, but it is challenging for me. I believe that Beelzebuth has helped me a great deal recently with divination. This is off track, sorry readers. I’m just verbose today. And waffling too much.
The Gist Of My Post, Kind Of!
To get to my post now…I’m kind of disappointed that some don’t think my Necrosophy books are spiritual. Well, maybe they really ARE spiritual because of the emphasis I put on ancestors, for one! Ancestor reverence is very enlightening, healing, calming and elevates the Dead as well as your own soul. Who says elevating souls is not spiritual? Isn’t that what Priests/Priestesses try to do when one passes on? As a Funerary Priestess, that is my goal. And to help grieving people adjust. My books are meant to be very informative. I was not working with Demons at that point and time, so they did not end up in this book. There are other books that are Necromantic and Demonic which have emphasis on certain things, and I did not even know they existed at the time my book did. I was not paying any attention to Demonolatry at that time, because that was a period when I shut it down. I was studying other things. Not even Palo. I was doing my own thing, and doing it very well. Why did I stop?
I got lonely. I had no one to share this information with. It seemed as though no one gave a damn, so I just gave up. I learned A LOT about my practice during the time I was using my Spirit Pot though. It was INTENSE. I was working with the Pot and Santa Muerte. Exclusively with muertos and Her. In and of itself, it is not a lonely practice, because you have a lot of spiritual energy, but having no one to share it with sucks. I documented things in my blog (a past one), but it didn’t gain very many readers.
Most of the information in my Necrosophy books came from channeling. There were some people out there defrauding my character and saying I plagiarized because I used two rituals out of a very scarce Witchcraft book in one of my books. I gave the author credit. I tried to locate the author, but to no avail. I think she has passed on. I haven’t even found another person who owns that book! I was admiring the work, I wasn’t meaning to gain from it. I’m not gaining much in royalties anyway. It’s not my prerogative to make money off of books I write. It is satisfaction of people reading them, studying them, and trying the rituals/exercises I write in them that makes me fulfilled. That’s the honest to Demons truth.
Sure, I need to make money to live. But doing a project like this is not going to house or feed me. I have my disability pay and my husband. (Common law, in case you are reading this, Social Security)
Another thing – I do love the imagery of Saturn, the power of it, the number 9 and all of it’s great associations – but I do not feel it is necessary for necromantic work. I DO use it, don’t get me wrong! I love Saturn. I’m ruled by it – I’m an Aquarius, dammit. 😛 (No, I don’t really like the Uranus association, I prefer the classical astrology) For Demonic necromantic work, Saturn seems necessary, but it isn’t really. Not for me. I think it’s probably prominent for people who actually NEED that extra energy. I already was born with it. I have a very strong link to Death in my chart. It’s posted here on this blog twice because I was a moron and forgot I posted it. LOL. A friend of mine from a long time ago analyzed my chart differently than I had it done before. She said some interesting things about my link with Death. Having 2 NDE’s was also a game changer. If you don’t have these links, or a natural ability with the Death Energy, you must call it into your life and perhaps use Saturn’s energies. I do use it on Saturdays, especially when I have obstacles or blockages.
To be perfectly honest, I love the idea of gate opening and so forth, but I’m not about to do it. Reasoning? Gates are already wide open here. The Dead are coming and going as they please because I have a vortex in my house, as well as being only 156 miles away from one of the most mysterious vortexes on the whole Planet Earth. The Oregon Vortex. There are 15 natural ley lines there that intersect. I want to go to this place. I just have to convince my honey to go south on I-5! The closer you get to California, the more it wants to suck you in and turn you into a weirdo. Sorry if I offend any Californians. I am an Oregonian and we have an unspoken rule here. We just don’t like them migrating up here with their organic bullshit and smart cars, making our real estate so expensive and tearing up our beautiful land to make ugly narrow houses. LOL!
I am waffling so bad tonight. I’m having another weird one. Wired even though I took my meds for sleep. Even my lovely lavender supplements. They are making me feel a bit like I’m on some Valium or something. Ahhh, some MediHaze. That’s nice.
I know people don’t know what I’m talking about, or referencing here. The book, “The Keys of Ocat.” It’s an advanced Demonolatry grimiore. It DOES have a lot more spiritual significance with the Demons. OF COURSE! Because it was written by a religious Demonolatress. At the time I wrote my book, see, I was on hiatus, so my book was not religious – BUT YES, it IS spiritual. And if you fail to see that, your eyes and brain must not be hooked together right. It was meant to be a practical grimiore, not anything flowery or filled with meaningless prose and poetry. I write for the working stiffs who happen to have a different form of spirituality. The many Paleros who wrote to me thought it was very spiritual and wondered how I knew all that stuff about making the Pots the way I did. Well, I didn’t have much of a clue. It was channeled. It could have been my personal spirit telling me, or it could have been knowledge I already received at some point, maybe in a past life for all I know. It sure as HELL didn’t come from any Palo books! There are NO GOOD Palo books in English. None. Nada. And don’t you tell me Frisvold’s book is good. It is CRAP.
Enough Palo shit. Didn’t mean to get into that. I said I wouldn’t. Ugh. Maybe it’s time for me to end this fucking post because it is already too long. I’m just meandering anyway. Is there really anything to take from this post? LOL. It is as pointless as it was when I attempted to try YouTube. That was a disaster. I’m no good on camera. Oh Well! Time to go to the Luciferian Apotheca and window shop!